Okay, so, I was feeling pretty good about coming to school today. I had a lot of stuff to do and even had it planned out - wow, huh? Apparently the barometric pressure has changed because they were insane. I am NOT a happy person when I feel like I haven't accomplished anything for the day. Freakin' kids. I'm lucky if I got one thing done on the list I had today because I had to stop and yell at them for talking so much.
I must be a pretty crummy teacher. Or at least only an average one. That's what truly depresses me, I think. I have no delusions of grandeur. I know that I'm not one of those people who are going to impact the world in a major way, and I'm perfectly fine with that. I do really REALLY want to be a good choir teacher though. Not just one of those "okay" teachers. And that's what I feel like on days like this. Being new really isn't an excuse anymore. Plus, if I had the talent to be a great teacher, wouldn't it have manifested itself by now?
Daniel should be done with the painting today. Which is probably a good thing for him, cause I'm sure that his head would have exploded if he had to come back here again. It kind of sucks living in a place no one wants to visit. It makes me feel like persona non grata. I guess my next residence shall have to be in a bigger city.
...anyway, sorry for the pity dump, but sometimes one just needs to vent. I'm calling my mommy next.
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Don't compare yourself to other people if you are. If you focus and concentrate on being the best that YOU can be then that sounds like my definition of 'great'. Hang in there, okay? No crummy person writes with the passion that you do about choir.
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